many words .. but all I want to say is thanks!!

Is time to explore the caverns of my personality in order to produce something that teh rest of the people in this blog can read.
Tonight I will follow my instincts and talk about what I should not.
I have to say that one of my dreams is coming true, for once in my life, maybe the most difficult time to this point I an standing in from of the edge but at the same time I am flying.
I can say that my heart is full at this point, my expectations are running all aruound the place, i feel free I feel deeply happy but at the same time I am facing the hell it self.
At the moment my life is divided in 2 mayor parts, my present that is more than disappointing, but my future looks better that ever... For moments I think all I have done in my life is taking me to this point, but at the same time i know that as well all of that is the root of my future, some maybe is just the crisis that keeps me feeling bad today, but at the same time the results are leading me to the future that even without logical recognition I have been looking for.
I know that is quite complicated to understand me at this point, I know that some times I look like a shadow just walking around, but believe me I have the light in my heart and soon will be brighter than the problem that are trying to extinguish the fire of my soul.
I can explain all this really strange situation based in the points my heart and my mind, the first one completely happy and ready for the rest of my life, and my mind full of sadness based in the present and the impossibility of having what I want or what I think I should have.
Well at least I can say something... Thanks for that smile that is the cause and the solution of my worst and best moments and moreover thanks for of that little things that are building my future in the ruins of my present.